What is Letter to God about?
In June of 2018, I released a song that hits close to home for me, called “Letter to God”. The song features my good friend Brian Runyon of Remnants Altar and was written as a letter to God. Writing the song as a letter allowed me to get my true feelings out and say what I wanted to say. Sometimes when writing songs, we can get a little shy and not want to say something that might offend someone or tear the “Christian musician” title off ourselves. But when it came to this song, I had to put it all out there. In the next few paragraphs I will break down the song for you and take you through the journey of “Letter to God”. Tell me in an email if you feel this song relates to you in anyway. You can email me at Nick@twelve27music.com.
“Dear God, I’m so confused, to live a life like this and be loved by you. I often wonder if they even know the pain of letting go.”
My closest family and friends know who the song refers to, and without saying exactly who… I will tell you that this song was written about a portion of loved ones that I had to unfortunately let go of separate myself and my family (wife and children) from. The first verse starts with “Dear God, I’m so confused, to live a life like this and be loved by you. I often wonder if they even know the pain of letting go.” Just as it says, I know that God loves me unconditionally but through this period of my life it was hard to understand why. There was a lot of lashing out directed towards my wife and I during the beginning of it all, including some verbal threats and name calling. The best way I could respond to any of it was with the bible. The word of God tells us to carry our sword (Bible) with us. You don’t always have to wield it but have it available (Ephesians 6:12 - 18). With all the lashing out, it was hard to think that they knew the pain of letting go. They said they did, but it was hard to see it with the actions they portrayed. “Not going to lie to you, you know I have some hate, but your love will shine through this void in me” We must confess and openly bring our problems and burdens to the Lord. 1 Peter 5:7 tells us “Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” And Proverbs 12:25 says “Anxiety in a man's heart weighs him down, but a good word makes him glad.” When we acknowledge that God's love can shine through our dark times, it makes it easier to talk to Him.
"Dear God, They keep fighting me. Telling me I'm nothing, and I could never be. They need to open up their eyes. What they don't realize , I got Christ inside. I'm sure that they will be surprised, I'll turn the tables and just in case I'm not able, I'll pray for strength to tear away these labels Lord."
"Free me from his pain, Keep me in your will, Hand on my heart, Lord make me well, The blood of Jesus Christ was shed for me, Not too late to tell you now, Please come rescue me"
Please take the time to listen to the song.